I have never longed so much to be home. Not my current home... Not my parents' home... But my real home, in heaven, with the One who is always here for me.
I have felt like this before, but never as much as I do today. Don't get me wrong... I love my life. I love my family despite their quirks. I have the most amazing fiance I could ever ask for. I am part of an awesome church, and have made some lifelong friends. But there are things in this world that I cannot wait to live without. The jealousy, the hatred, the rumors... So much that is just not fair, it seems.
I wish I could take away the pain from those I love. I wish they would see that God will cover us and protect us in everything as long as we follow Him. All of my wishing means nothing if I don't use the words of my mouth to praise the One who can hold us in our most difficult times. When so much hardship comes, we would rather spend our time cursing this world and its faults and we forget to praise.
No long, bible-versed filled blog here. Just a reminder...
We were not made for this world, so obviously we won't agree with a lot of the things that happen in it. But we must be mindful at all times and keep our eyes open. One day He will come and take this pain from us, and we will be in a perfect place with no fear, no pain, no jealousy... Until then, we must be strong in Him and remember to praise at all times.
And never forget about our eternal home... Come soon, Jesus...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Insignificance...
I'm not too small... About 5'4". I feel short compared to a lot of other people, but I feel rather tall compared to the sweet little one I watch every day.
But I feel ridiculously small when I drive around town. In Morgantown, the worst time to travel by vehicle is between the months of September and May... College students are back! Driving through campus the other day made me realize how much I really don't matter compared to this world. I am just one person in a sea of many.
I've recently become "addicted" to a new song. I've known it for a while, but it has just struck me with a lot of thoughts lately. It's called "Hold My Heart" by Tenth Avenue North. (PS - They're awesome!) The first part of the chorus really sums up how insignificant I feel:
One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
Could you imagine trying to find a tear in the middle of a downpour? Trying to hear one cry amongst so many? Thinking of how I am like that one tear... That one voice... Makes me feel very small. So small that I wonder how God really can hear my heart breaking at times. How, when there are so many other horrible things going on in this world, could God have time for little ole me? Sure, I have problems, but they feel so minimal compared to some others. Yet He is always there beside me helping me walk through them. I think that there are so many times when we feel insignificant and therefore think God won't help us. But He is here for us. He is all-knowing and wants to help us live a life that glorifies Him.
No, it's not bad to realize how small you are. Or to think about how there are so many problems in the world that are more important than your spat with depression, or anger, or pride. But we must remember that God still cares. A good mindset about our insignificance is covered in the second part of the chorus:
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?
Yes, you are only one life among so many. But you are important! Instead of letting your insignificance be a hindrance to your faith, allow it to be a motivation! Remind yourself that even though you are small, He still wants to be close to you and hold your heart.
But I feel ridiculously small when I drive around town. In Morgantown, the worst time to travel by vehicle is between the months of September and May... College students are back! Driving through campus the other day made me realize how much I really don't matter compared to this world. I am just one person in a sea of many.
I've recently become "addicted" to a new song. I've known it for a while, but it has just struck me with a lot of thoughts lately. It's called "Hold My Heart" by Tenth Avenue North. (PS - They're awesome!) The first part of the chorus really sums up how insignificant I feel:
One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
Could you imagine trying to find a tear in the middle of a downpour? Trying to hear one cry amongst so many? Thinking of how I am like that one tear... That one voice... Makes me feel very small. So small that I wonder how God really can hear my heart breaking at times. How, when there are so many other horrible things going on in this world, could God have time for little ole me? Sure, I have problems, but they feel so minimal compared to some others. Yet He is always there beside me helping me walk through them. I think that there are so many times when we feel insignificant and therefore think God won't help us. But He is here for us. He is all-knowing and wants to help us live a life that glorifies Him.
No, it's not bad to realize how small you are. Or to think about how there are so many problems in the world that are more important than your spat with depression, or anger, or pride. But we must remember that God still cares. A good mindset about our insignificance is covered in the second part of the chorus:
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?
Yes, you are only one life among so many. But you are important! Instead of letting your insignificance be a hindrance to your faith, allow it to be a motivation! Remind yourself that even though you are small, He still wants to be close to you and hold your heart.
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